So, I went to the doctors today, the reason is not important but I had to be put on a scale. I have not been put on a scale for maybe a year and a half. Last time I checked I was around 135-140 pounds. Today I found out I hit just over 150. This is extreamly depressing to me. I had a feeling I was gaining weight but didn’t realize how much. I don’t know why but there’s just something about “150 pounds” that is just frightening to me. I have to be less than that, I do not want to be like I was in the past and I will do everything I can to change for the future.